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WHEN THE MOMENT CALLS TO BE A DIFFERENT KIND OF #BRAVE
Life can be a pretty shitty place some days.
On the most part, I look at life as a whole. I have an innate ability to sit and look at things from a distance accepting what is, and seeing the beauty in everything even when your heart is being ripped out of your chest or the carpet is being pulled form underneath your feet.
Life is perfectly imperfect. It cant be amazing 100% of the time and it cant be f***ed up 100% When those Ebbs and flows come, its one thing that always comes to the front of my thinking. This my B.R.A.V.E! being bold, resilient, accepting, vulnerable and empathic.
Its amazing just how quick life can change in a heartbeat.
One minute my beautiful boy Morris or as he is know by every one “Mozza” was a cheeky happy go lucky dog who came from a pretty shitty life and found his forever home with me. He is now fighting for his life as I write this. What is wrong? they aren’t sure. Its not something that I had contemplating or factored in any time soon. He has been my rock through some pretty tough moments over the past 18 months. I should have been his, but I have been selfish.
He is my teacher, of what unconditional love is, that there are more important things in life. I arrive home, he looses his mind, nudge me with his nose to let me know that he is here for me. He pushes the laptop off my lap, the phone out of my hand, just wants to hang out, show me how much he loves me. Its those NOW moments that make life so raw and beautiful. No photo or words can every capture what these moments are life.
Today I don’t have strength, today I have weakness.
I am not a religious person, but Im certainly spiritual. I am a realist of sorts, I accept and understand the life cycle.
Buddha says attachment is the cause of all suffering, this has always helped me accept loss. Doesn’t make it any easier, but it allows me to accept the circumstance better now.
Being strong is one of my greatest traits and something that I continually show others how to do. But my brave is acknowledging that I don’t know how to be weak. Today is one of those days. Don’t know how to be weak, ‘are you f***king mental’ I hear you say?
No Im not mental, Im braver than most to be able to be vulnerable and acknowledge it, and show the world that having moments of weakness is what makes you stronger. When we can understand it that how we become even more powerful.
Today I am brave because I am weak.
Today I don’t want to Adult,
Today I don’t want to make the decision to have to send my little soul to the rainbow bridge if that is what the diagnosis is.
Today I need to find my HOW
Shine Brightly
Courage Freedom happiness
Cindy Rella